What am I going to do now?

Shit, man, shit, I have not written anything for a while, nothing for a while, nothing. Where have I been? I have been just dicking around with my time, man. I need to get back on track, on the ball, get the ball rolling, grow a pair and throw them against the wall action. Man, [...]

Nostalgia List

I was sitting in Psych today and I was thinking about what matters to me so I ended up making this list of things that have nostalgia for me.

Xanga
Shareaza
Epileptic Gaming
Drew Carey Show
Early Adult Swim Shows
Prisoner’s Dilemma
Derren Brown
Existentialism Class
Digg
MIT OCW
Chucky Note Pad (lost that shit senior year)
Fables (comics)
LXG (comics)
Dofus
Disney Movies (especially in the 90s)
Counter-Strike
Starcraft
Pokemon (TV Show, [...]

What was I looking for…?

I was sitting right here when it happened. I had the idea for what I wanted to write. Exactly what was on my mind that the idea would come to me and I would be the vehicle for it’s existence, like my fingers are like birth canals, you don’t even know, man.
And I lost it. [...]

Writing a Story

I’m writing a story about writing this story. I came up with the idea in my English class when my professor mentioned the idea that Midsummer Night’s Dream featured a play within a play. I typed all of this my self and still am typing. This story is like an ouroboros eating it’s own tail. [...]

12-19

No matter what, everyone has something to complain about in an obnoxious whining voice that is meant to show their discontent and let people know. There was an evolutionary purpose to this, to alert of one’s helpless condition, but without prudence, the average person will continue to fall back into the same natural habits of [...]

conclusion

i know that i dont know what i want
so i fear that i am wasting my time not doing what is best
i doubt what could be dreams
and tangle up desires before they take flight
i wish i knew what could be good
and find out that it is
i dont know what i want
and i fear that will [...]

waiting for godot

shit, i realized that at some point in time in the past, i went over the edge and i’m going to have a hell of a time to recover because today i discovered a part of me that i’m going to end up falling back on.
i don’t want to have such a low base of [...]

Am typing

Eight quarters two pennies, five nickels, five dimes on my desk. Am typing.
People bother me. Focus on the important things.
All I think about is how everything is supposed to work in relation to me and how I’m supposed to work in relation to everything else.
How can I remember anything? I don’t know. So I write [...]

The Struggle

This post seems to be about a lot of existential frustration brought on by physical problems that I cannot seem to overcome. A lot of the stuff here will probably be way over your head, as I am now reading this over and a lot of this does seem to go over mine as well. So, I guess I just want to say this is how I write about my frustrations…

What am I doing?

Okay, I’m going to try something different. Instead of blurting things out and leaving it, I’m going to try and ramble and give commentary at the same time.
What am I doing at night, by myself, thinking about chemicals, particles, and ideas, idle fascinations and momentary lapses of reason? – I have been thinking about how [...]